The worst traps we fall into are the ones we self create. The circular thinking, the trapping ourselves in a box. The falling into old patterns.
I caught myself doing that the last couple of days. Falling into old thinking patterns, ignoring all the things that I have learned. Blowing off the person I have been striving to be. And the worst part is that I started to drag other people into my negative spiral.
NO. Not again. That is who I used to be. Making myself miserable, not ever thinking about how to fix whatever it was that was bothering me or even taking the time to figure out if my misery was all self created drama. If I was digging my own hole or if there was actually something wrong. Dragging other people or trying to drag other people into my misery so I could feel like I wasn't alone.
That was the old me.
I'm apologizing to you
and I am apologizing to me
Feel free to tell me JUST STOP IT next time you catch me doing that. Or maybe giving me a good ole smack upside the head. Seriously. If it's this annoying for me I cannot imagine how irritating it is for the people around me.