"I want to be my own design" Clive Barker - Imajica

Monday, January 31, 2011

The moments between

I had an interesting conversation with a friend via the interwebz this evening. She asked me how I was doing because we haven't seen or talked to each other since the beginning of the new year. When I told her that I was doing okay, nothing too exciting we started talking about how most of us are boring in real life and she responded with "not you, you always have something interesting going on." It started me thinking about how we perceive our lives compared to how outsiders may see us and the moments that someone else views as interesting or noteworthy compared to what you hold dear.

It's hard to be objective about your own life, after all you are too closely involved. You are dealing with all the mundane, day to day bullshit that life inevitably throws your way. You know how mundane you and your existence really is. We all have interesting moments in our lives, we all have stories to tell but in between the stories is our everyday existence.

The eating, sleeping, crying, cleaning, smiling, daily events that no one including yourself usually think about. The moments we take for granted. Sometimes those little moments can be what makes life worth all the damned struggle and strife.

The moments in between.

Remember these moments. Sometimes they are all you have. Remember the smile, the touch on the cheek, petting the kitty, the laugh of someone you care about. Remember and appreciate these moments no matter how small.

Don't lose sight of the little moments looking for the next big thing to come along.


Word of the Day


[lang-gwish] Show IPA
–verb (used without object)
1.to be or become weak or feeble; droop; fade.
2.to lose vigor and vitality.
3.to undergo neglect or experience prolonged inactivity; suffer hardship and distress: to languish in prison for ten years.
4.to be subjected to delay or disregard; be ignored: a petition that languished on the warden's desk for a year.
5.to pine with desire or longing.
6.to assume an expression of tender, sentimental melancholy.
7.the act or state of languishing.
8.a tender, melancholy look or expression.

Sunday, January 30, 2011


I am sure I am not the only one who does this.

You read something or say something or do something and you sit there and obsess over it.
The meanings
The ramifications
The what should I have done differently
The what could I have done differently

And the really stupid part about it is that 9 times out of 10 whatever you are obsessing over has nothing to actually do with you.

It's not all about you after all.

Friday, January 28, 2011

Don't worry Grandpa, I still remember to check my oil

If you ever met my grandfather you would know that he was a lot like Yosemite Sam only with a LOT more profanity. The man loved to cuss. I think that is where I get it from, although I don't say goddammit nearly as much as he did. Seriously the man would say it every other word. I decided I needed to document some of the words of wisdom that my grandpa would always say to me that I, as a teenager or child would of course promptly blow off. Now that I am an adult I realize, much to my chagrin that he was usually right about shit. Dammit. I wish he was still around for me to tell him that.

I don't seem to have any more current photos of him laying around but here are some of my favorites from when he was young...
I believe that this was when he was in Korea during the Korean War...

My Grandpa and my maternal grandmother, Nerita who passed away in 1959. I wish I could have met her or any of my family on her side.

Also from Korea I think.

I miss my Grandpa. A LOT.

November 16, 1929 - September 5, 2002
John died after a short battle with cancer. He leaves behind to celebrate his life and to treasure his memory: Children John Jr., Vivian Sparrow, Walter, Tammy Janega, Lisa Durham. Grandchildren: Ronald Hancock II, PJ Sparrow, Rebecca, Walter Evarts, Aidan, Zackary and Alyssa Durham. Great-grandchildren: Ronald III, Douglas and Violet Hancock. Brothers and sisters Bob, Tom, Toni, Nada and Barbara, and his dear and wonderful friend Hannelore Wnenta. He was preceded in death by wives Nerita 1959, Jo Carole 2001, son Joseph, parents Walter and Juanita, brothers Chuck and Don.
 In 1969 John was honorably discharged after 22 years of service from the U.S. Army at the rank of Sergeant First Class. He served his country in the Korean and Vietnam Wars, receiving many awards and commendations including the Bronze Star. After 20 years of service with Western Forge, John retired but continued to work part time for Butch's Auto nagging customers and telling bad jokes. John possessed incredible kindness, sentimentality and sense of humor. John's children will always remember his imagination, creativity and his ability to build all kinds of functional trinkets. He passed this ability onto grandson Aidan, who carries on with all the tools "Tool Grandpa" gave him.
John loved Colorado, talk radio, sports, gardening, traveling to visit friends Tom and Paula Carlson in Florida, and spending time with Lori, who taught him to smile again.
He passed from this life with his family at his side. We are blessed to have been there to see this man who gave us life to go on to wander the mountains he loved. Don't worry Pop, we won't forget to check the oil.
In lieu of flowers, donations can be made to the Pikes Peak Hospice in the name of John II Evarts Sr. Remember to be kind to a stranger, and spend time with those you love... life is so short.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Words of the Day - 01/26/11


[am-biv-uh-luhns] Show IPA
1.uncertainty or fluctuation, esp. when caused by inability to make a choice or by a simultaneous desire to say or do two opposite or conflicting things.
2.Psychology . the coexistence within an individual of positive and negative feelings toward the same person, object, or action, simultaneously drawing him or her in opposite directions.


[dis-guhst, dih-skuhst] Show IPA
–verb (used with object)
1.to cause loathing or nausea in.
2.to offend the good taste, moral sense, etc., of; cause extreme dislike or revulsion in: Your vulgar remarks disgust me.


[ap-uh-thee] Show IPA
–noun, plural -thies.
1.absence or suppression of passion, emotion, or excitement.
2.lack of interest in or concern for things that others find moving or exciting.
3.Also, ap·a·thei·a, ap·a·thi·a [ap-uh-thee-uh] Show IPA. Stoicism . freedom from emotion of any kind.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Get outta my head and I will get outta yours.

You ever have those moments when it seems like you are channeling someone else or that they are channeling you? I realize that usually it just randomly happens that you happen to think of, say or write something simliar to other people and that it is especially prone to happen when you are close to people but this week has been kind of nuts with that.

I posted a blog defining the word assumption and the same day and pretty close to the same time actually, the Zen Archer posted a blog about taking a break and ended her post with "Assumption is the mother of all fuck ups."

Then the lovely Ms. Jane posted a blog entry yesterday about the crazy and stupid things we do for love. Funny thing is I found this picture yesterday and was thinking about doing a similar post. Guess I don't have to now *laugh* 

Life can be weird sometimes.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Word of the Day 01/19/11


[ee-goh-sen-trik, eg-oh-] 
1.having or regarding the self or the individual as the center of all things: an egocentric philosophy that ignores social causes.
2.having little or no regard for interests, beliefs, or attitudes other than one's own; self-centered: an egocentric person; egocentric demands upon the time and patience of others.
3.an egocentric person.

1895–1900; ego  + -centric
e·go·cen·tric·i·ty [ee-goh-sen-tris-i-tee, eg-oh-] , noun
e·go·cen·trism, noun
non·e·go·cen·tric, adjective

2.  self-absorbed, self-obsessed.
2.  altruistic, unselfish.

Monday, January 17, 2011

I like griping - II


[uh-soom] Show IPA verb, -sumed, -sum·ing.
–verb (used with object)
1.to take for granted or without proof; suppose; postulate; posit: to assume that everyone wants peace.
2.to take upon oneself; undertake: to assume an obligation.
3.to take over the duties or responsibilities of: to assume the office of treasurer.
4.to take on (a particular character, quality, mode of life, etc.); adopt: He assumed the style of an aggressive go-getter.
5.to take on; be invested or endowed with: The situation assumed a threatening character.
6.to pretend to have or be; feign: to assume a humble manner.
7.to appropriate or arrogate; seize; usurp: to assume a right to oneself; to assume control.
8.to take upon oneself (the debts or obligations of another).
9.Archaic . to take into relation or association; adopt.
Biggest pet peeve? People who make assumptions. See definition number one. 
Just stop making assumptions. 

The Boys

Always handsome.

Trent all cleaned up and at the Golden Globes. Weird.

Kevin Spacey, always a class act.

Jeremy Renner looking fantastic in black on black.

I love Geoffrey Rush's hat. Made the look for me.

Ryan Gosling, one of my favorite actors looking good.

Oh Robert Downey Jr, trying to be a rebel by wearing a suit instead of a tux. Sorry, I love you but it just isn't working for me. PS get a haircut.

Only Johnny Depp can pull off the tux with the shirt open and no tie. Not to mention a wallet chain. Glad he left his scarf and multitude of accessories at home.

Colin Firth looking dapper.

Another black on black look that I loved. And he still looks handsome even with the beard and the long Jesus hair.

The Bad

The hair was highly inappropriate for the dress and the dress was very, very blah on her. Way too old lady in my opinion. She reminds me of those Sad Sam stuffed dogs that I used to have. Remember those?

It's just all wrong to me. The light pink on the bottom just cuts her figure into pieces in a very unfortunate way.

I really didn't like the mesh at the top of this dress, and her having her hair down with this doesn't work at all. I do like the color though.

Great color on her but seriously what the hell was up with the asymmetrical dresses with the giant poufy things on the shoulder? JUST STOP IT.

Angelina Jolie wearing a dress I'd expect to see on Joan Collins or Linda Evans. Because you know what men love in a woman? Wide shoulders! Except no.

Again with the giant shoulders! Apparently this year we are heading to the 80's for our fashion inspirations. And the weird color of this dress doesn't do much for Anne Hathaway's lovely complexion. Meh.

Another emerald green dress, the color looks great on her but the draping of the fabric around her waist and hips is just way to unflattering to like this look at all.

Oh Halle, lingerie is never awards show apparel. The dress itself is okay, I don't love it but I don't hate it. It is just inappropriate for the red carpet.

Bad dress, bad hair, bad makeup. Heidi Klum usually dresses way better than this so it's a shame to see her trying out the 70's bohemian look which I personally cannot stand. Ick.

Again with the color being a win but the dress not so much. With all the cut outs this dress chops her figure up and makes her look blocky, which she very much isn't.

Oh J-Lo, I never really expect to like what you are wearing because I really don't care for your style however the sheer old lady capelet? Really? Really? And the disastrous ponytail. Methinks it's time to get a new stylist or three.

Where to start? The awful hair style? The wrinkles on the dress? How about the damned poufy, asymmetrical sleeve? There isn't one thing I like about this look. Not one.

This Little House on the Prairie dress looks like Leighton Meister had gotten it muddy prior to the show and she couldn't quite get all the stains out. Blah color and horrible design. Don't like it, no sir.

Another one who consistently dresses awfully which is really too sad because she is so lovely and is quite talented. This dress looks like it was made with the wallpaper my grandparents used to have in their laundry room with macrame used for the straps.

Natalie Portman normally dresses lovely but the last two awards shows she has picked some truly ugly dresses. The giant bedazzled rose on the dress is purely awful and that shade of pink doesn't really flatter her complexion.

Nicole Kidman seems to favor a certain color palette so much that she seems to make sure her skin, hair and clothes are all in the same color family. I always liked it when her hair was redder and her color choices were bolder.